Old Emails

Today I read old email exchanges between us and I was just reminded of the wonderful, beautiful promise on which we have built this entire relationship on. I also read a John Piper sermon on how God is most glorified when we find our greatest satisfaction in Him. He said, "Christ is glorified in you when he is more precious to you than all that life can give or death can take."

I am blessed that things happened the way they have. I am blessed by the two + years we were together before you formally asked me to marry you. I look on those years and it's just clear to me just how much I've learned. I'm blessed that you always encourage me to go to church, to serve, to fellowship, to have bible study.

It's clear that the Lord is the one thing most needful, the one who can give us the most joy, the most satisfaction. This has been clear to you from the very beginning, and I now understand why you pursue Him so ardently. Me, well, I am a work in progress. I'd like to think that even if I am still in the process of being sanctified, the Lord has been gracious enough to help me become more mature in Him.

There are still so many things that  I am learning, or need to learn. Sometimes I catch myself getting overwhelmed at the idea of the  many things involved in running a household, or being  a mom. These are the times that I want to just curl up into a ball and hide.

But I just cling to His strength, His guidance, His provision, His wisdom. There is courage to be found in the knowledge, that the God of the whole universe cares enough to help me with things like this.